In just 7 days I went from 0 to 100. Real quick.
When I first arrived to Australia, I really wasn’t in a good mindspace. I just didn’t feel like myself to be honest. Things kept going wrong and I felt like a klutzy mess. One day I took the bus in the wrong direction for 30 minutes. I went four days without my luggage. Every time I walked on the sidewalk it was in the wrong way, creating an awkward type of touristy trot that sent me into cringes.
There was a point where I bursted into tears in front of Hungry Jacks (AKA Burger King) on the busiest street in Sydney. Then on my first Friday night here, I found myself walking up and down Oxford street by myself with a lump in my throat searching for something to do or someone to talk to, only to go back home and eat Schnitzel in bed, followed by unexcusable hours of sleep. I blamed some of it on jet-lag but my mind was secretely skirting around the awful realization that maybe I had made the wrong choice in coming here.
Then something kind of strange happened. It was a Sunday, I took the ferry to a majestic place called Manly. Upon arrival there was a map of the area that had a few trails that went along the sea.
I began walking. I passed through the beach where large groups of friends were playing Volleyball together and couples held hands walking along the white sand being all romantic and shit. I followed the trail as it led into a forested area and went off the trail for a bit. As I ducked my head under unusual trees and stepped along steep rocky cliffs that overlooked the most indescribably blue clear water beneath me. I sat on a rock and stared out endlessly at the sea.
This is going to sound super cheesy but suddenly something just washed over me. It was like some kind of naturally occurring Australian exorcism of my shit attitude. I didn’t fly halfway across the world, work my ass off to save money just to come here and feel sorry for myself. Some people will never get to see what I am looking at right now and here I am being all negative. This was a privilege.
As I left Manly that day I was a changed woman.
Everything has been really great since that strange Sunday, my luggage was found, I’ve made friends, I went to a BBQ, then I went to another BBQ, then I WENT TO A 3RD BBQ. I’ve gotten very close with boxed wine, I’ve gone to a dinner party, I’ve had a meat pie, I’ve got an Australian phone number.
I am now about to go travel around the country and gently deplete some of my savings before starting work.
Life is good